Deja vu

Saturday 7th May.
After two days of progress under full ventilation, jovie is taken down to the support ventilator (called cpap) and then off the machines all together to breath all by herself.

Wednesday 25th May
After two days of progress under full ventilation, jovie is taken down to the support ventilator (called cpap) and then off the machines all together to breath all by herself.

Saturday 7th May.
Breathing completely unaided and with only minor blips along the way jovie goes 12 hours breathing on her own.

Wednesday 25th May.
Breathing completely unaided and with only minor blips along the way jovie goes 9 hours breathing on her own.

Saturday 7th May
We get excited by jovies progress and start to hope we will soon have her home. The one thing we want more than any other in world.

Wednesday 25th May
We get excited by jovies progress and start to hope we will soon have her home. The one thing we want more than any other in world.

Saturday 7th May.
Jovie has visitors, all of who leave seemingly with the knowledge that a corner has been turned and its only a matter of time before this nightmare is over. We allow ourselves similar thoughts as we contemplate jovie coming out of intensive.

Wednesday 25th May.
Jovie has visitors, all of who leave seemingly with the knowledge that a corner has been turned and its only a matter of time before this nightmare is over. We allow ourselves similar thoughts as we contemplate jovie coming out of intensive.

Saturday 7th May.
Jovies breathing starts to become more erratic. Her stats drop alarmingly and the doctors are forced to put her back on full ventilation. We are distraught and can't see anything passed the worst case scenarios. All of our previous joy and hope is ripped from us.

Wednesday 25th May.
Jovies breathing starts to become more erratic... Yet while her stats are safe the doctors are forced to put her back on minor ventilation.

Saturday 7th May
We promise ourselves not to get overly excited by potential progress and good news. Or likewise too downhearted about bad news or stumbles in the road.

Wednesday 25th May
Despite promising ourselves not to get overly excited by potential progress and good news or likewise too downhearted about bad news or stumbles in the road...... (You can see where this is going)

Are we living in groundhog day? For a while this evening, even after such a good day, angry and fed up we would have said yes. But progress is progress. Jovie IS in a much better position than she was on that Saturday in Worcester. But fuck me this is hard. Its impossible not to get excited when progress seems so promising just as its impossible not to fear the worst when problems arise. We keep telling ourselves this. We just won't listen. Are we living in groundhog day? For a while this evening, even after such a good day, angry and fed up we would have said yes. But progress is progress. Jovie IS in a much better position than she was on that Saturday in Worcester. But fuck me this is hard. Its impossible not to get excited when progress seems so promising just as its impossible not to fear the worst when problems arise. We keep telling ourselves this. We just won't listen. Are we living in groundhog day...