Friday, 3 May 2024

Teenage Kicks

A simple message to you Jovie, for when the time comes that you get to read this blog (assuming you’ll even want to as you’re far too cool for that sort of thing).

We’ve had some incredible ups & some life changing downs in the 3 years since I last posted. Much of that is for another time & place but for now I just want to say this;

Happy Birthday our teenage daughter. 13 today - 4th May 2024.

I will never be able to convey to you the absolute joy it gives me to be able to say that. The days I feared you wouldn’t make 13 days or weeks let alone years thankfully feel a lifetime away yet still so fresh in the memory.

You have become the most inspirational, brave and resilient young lady we could have ever hoped for and I want you to know that we could not be prouder of you.

Happy birthday our miracle daughter, to my hero.

Love always x









Monday, 3 May 2021

Dear Jovie...

 Dear Jovie,

You’re not quite ready to be shown these old blogs yet - too much colourful language 😆 & as such you won’t get the chance to read this just yet. It’s been a long time since I last wrote one - a positive sign in many ways that things have been ok I suppose what with many being born out of heartache. With that in mind, whenever you are reading this I wish you a very happy, belated, 10th Birthday!

10.

10 years old. It’s actually incredible to think an entire decade has passed since I sat and cried my heart out watching you struggle to breathe for yourself in that tiny little incubator in Worcester hospital. A week later and our 6 month journey at Birmingham Children’s Hospital was underway. At any point during that frightening, inspiring, horrendous & incredible time you’d have told us I’d be sat 10 years later wishing you the happiest of birthdays we’d have been extremely happy to hear it.

On an annual trip back to BCH just this week you asked me about our time there and how it felt going through some of those most horrendous moments. I couldn’t even bring myself to tell you it was the most frightening time of our entire lives. On more than one occasion I thought we’d never get out of there.

But that was then. In a couple of hours time you’re going to be 10 years old! I still can’t believe it. You’ve been through more in a decade than most will experience in a lifetime and I cannot begin to explain how proud of you I am. You’re my absolute hero & you’ve changed my life for the better in every way. I wanted to recount some memories of the last 10 years but there are just so many it’s hard to even know where to start!

So I’ll keep it simple and say; happy birthday my amazing miracle. My best friend and my greatest achievement. Your mum and I both love you with all our hearts & have loved this decade of making memories with you. Thank for your bravery, your sense of humour & your courage.

Roll on the next 10 🥰 🐺 




Thursday, 9 April 2015

Iiiiit's OUT!

On Thursday 9th April 2015 at approximately 11am, 1385 days after Jovie had, what was effectively a life saving operation to 'fit' a tracheostomy;

IT
IS
OUT!

Jovie did the honours herself and has been showing off her new un-taped up neck complete with jazzy plaster to anyone who will look all day! Loads of family around today to make her feel extra special and we can't even get our heads around how happy/scared/excited we are right now.

Not 100,000,000% cracked the mask just yet - she's still a bit spooked by it when it pops off or comes loose - but near as dammit. This little girl never ceases to amaze/impress us. Can only imagine what it feels like for her, but it's already a pleasure carrying around less medical equipment (I'm a daddy not a doctor!) and watching her eat and play without worrying sick about that tube.

Lots of work still to do including a full sleep study tonight, chance of getting home tomorrow which would be ace. a real landmark day for my little Wolfpac ✌️




Monday, 6 April 2015

Tracheostomy

Jovie wakes up and we have to empty any water that has collected in her ventilator tubing, this happens often and is pretty dangerous as left alone the water could easily go back into Jovies trachey tube when she sits up and straight into her lungs causing all manner of problems.

Suction.

Jovie has to sit up while we attach a saline nebuliser to her Trachey via her ventilator. After this runs through we give her chest physio.

Suction.

After the saline nebuliser its a colomisin one, an antibiotic type medicine administered in the same way that helps fight off trachey infections, something we've had dozens of over the years.

Suction.

After vent turned off and tidied up, we deflate the cuff within the trachey with a syringe. Water is used to inflate it in order to close off the leak around the tube as Jovie has steadily outgrown it over the years. While inflated she can barely make a sound. After this, a cap - either a sealed off red one or a clear speaking valve that still allows some air to pass through - is attached to the end of jovies trachey. Often she will take this off while eating as it "feels funny" during this time with her airway exposed its more of a risk than normal so we stay on our toes even more. Eating will generally cause coughing and increased secretions.

Suction.

Morning routine done, every day Jovie has to have her tapes changed. So while holding the tube in her neck so it doesn't fall out, we wash, dry and cream her neck - it's often sore due to the velcro rubbing or because she's been sweating - new tapes are applied with padding to try and protect the hole and skin around it. All this usually causes coughing.

Suction.

That's every single day. Once a week the tube is actually removed and replaced with a clean one. The whole process usually lasts ten to fifteen minutes.

At bedtime, the entire morning routine is essentially repeated. Every single day. 

The spare tubes and variety of cleaning products and pieces of kit are kept in a room which is basically a store room also full of other trachey related equipment from spare tubing to boxes of water for the humidifier, hundreds of suction catheters and lots of circuits. (Thank fuck for the free nhs). Every week we order new stock to be delivered or collected. Almost every week the wrong stuff is brought or things are missing. Not a big deal, we're used to it and see the funny side after 3years & 7months (approx 146 weeks/deliveries).

During the day, purely trachey related, everywhere Jovie goes her suction machine - size of a large toolbox and as heavy as one - goes with her. Along with a lunch bag sized emergency bag with spare tubes, tapes etc in.

As a result of the tube, eating is dangerous and nerve racking at times. All food is scrutinised for size, shape and ease of swallowing. Jovie can't swim, doesn't get to bath properly and needs to be super careful when drinking. Other kids often ask about it. Parents just tend to stare.

Since June 2011 when the trachey was 'fitted' it's nearly killed Jovie once (after it was the wrong size to begin with), it's caused emergencies at home, at Acorns, in bed and while eating. It delayed her speech. It's been made bigger, fitted with the inflatable cuff and has caused countless infections due to the fact it's an open route to her lungs and essentially a foreign object the body is continually fighting off. It's restricted the ability to go places without transport, robbed us of a room in the house, cost the nhs probably £1000s and been a bloody nuisance on almost a daily basis.

It also saved Jovies life. It was introduced at a time when other avenues had failed and nothing else would work. It's allowed us to live a (relatively) normal life. Has given us the freedom to stay out when Jovie has fallen asleep or go on long car journeys. It's also helped us come to terms and manage jovies condition and has even helped fight colds and bugs in allowing us to get all that sort of crap out of Jovie easily via the suction machine.

It has been a curious addition to our lives. One we must be hugely thankful for while at the same time are utterly, and completely fed up with.

It's time is, thankfully up. Through natural development, hard work, luck (I guess) and Jovies own incredible will we are now at the point where we are set for the biggest change since the trachey was first introduced.

While Jovies condition remains the same, we now move on to the next chapter. Ventilation via a face mask. A huge change in so many ways. For Jovie, certainly while awake it's relative 'normality'. No tube. No suction. No inflated cuff that stops her from talking. No carer while she goes to school. No (or at least a lot less) specialist training needed to be left alone with friends and family.

For us, less equipment. A routine with our daughter that can include proper baths, falling asleep on the sofa, swimming, eating like a pig without fear of blocking a stupid fuckin pipe and so much more. Probably incredibly trivial stuff, but stuff I actually cry about the thought of being able to do. An actual proper, bubbles over the edge, dunking her under and tipping water on her head bath!! Surfing! Paddling pools! It's all going to be possible.

Yes, the face masks will come with their own baggage and problems no doubt. I'm petrified about how reliable the ventilation will be now it won't be via a direct route to her lungs. I've known nothing else almost her whole life so in many ways have no idea how things will be without the trachey. There will still be stock orders and with them the delivery of the wrong stuff I'm sure! Colds and bugs for Jovie may even be harder to cope with in many ways as the mask will probably be more awkward to mange while she's awake than the trachey. It's a massive change for us, but one that Jovie needs and bloody deserves.

So it's off to BCH again to get the ball rolling. A couple of nights ventilated via a mask with the trachey still in place but blocked off. All being well the tube will then simply be taken out, the hole simply plastered over and left to heal on its own which can take a month or more apparently. Then it will be no more tracheostomy.

One day we will tell her all about her time living with the trachey. There's a memory box with some stories to tell we will show her. Having known nothing else really it's actually mad to think that stories and photos will be all we have to show for it. Hoping it's the right choice and things go as smoothly as possible. Scared. Excited. Ready for a big change. #RollOn

First ever night with the trachey to...
...possibly the last! ❤️ this 🐒


Tuesday, 27 November 2012

365 days later...

The birth of your first born is widely regarded as being the day that is supposed to be the best day of your life. I have no reservations in admitting this wasn't the case for me.

I wouldn't wish what we went through with Jovie, from that first day in the Worcester NICU to the miserable November afternoon in Birmingham when we finally had the news we wanted, on my worst enemy.

When jovie was born I sat across from her incubator wandering if I'd ever get to hold her. Lorna Marie Wyse didn't even get to see our little girl.

Tomorrow however, marks 1 whole year; 365 amazing life altering days since we got our little miracle home. Like the queen, jovie will always have 2 birthdays. So happy birthday for tomorrow to the greatest, bravest, most amazing little girl I have ever been blessed to have as part of my life. I love you baby. Can't wait to see you smiling again tomorrow x







Wednesday, 9 May 2012

Jovie's Big Day I

Away from current grumbles about how yesterday went so tits up, a little message just to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who sent well wishes, cards and presents for Jovie's birthday last week.

The 'three-day' birthday celebrations were hands down three of the best days of our lives and we enjoyed every minute of the celebrations. Jovie had a really great time at her party, and enjoyed watching her uncle simon leap out of a plane on Sunday on behalf of Ronald McDonald House.

It was a birthday we at times only dared to look forward to and it turned out to be better than even we hoped for. Thanks to everyone involved... send your suggestions on how to top it in 2013 on a postcard please!